Tuesday, August 01, 2006
After doing some "blog searching" mostly through searching for adoption blogs, I came across one called Faithful Mommy (hopefully I did that link right, its the first time) and she has something called Treasure Tuesday where she as well as others talk about something they treasure each Tuesday. So, today I thought I would do this - hopefully I can keep it up. I saw her blog last week, so I started thinking of what would be my treasure for this week -- I thought of all kinds of things that I am thankful for (I guess I will share them later), then this morning at 5:00 I got something that may seem silly to some, but that I treasured. It was 15 minutes of cuddling with Amelia. I realize you may think - WHAT? She's 4 months old, you can cuddle her all the time. Not so, this child is not a cuddler. She cuddled some as a newborn, but I don't know if sleeping constantly counts as cuddling - no matter if she is in your arms. I'm sure that someday I will be thankful that she loves to be in her bed, to play by herself, and that she is "inquisitive" (nosy) to the point that she wants to be held facing out so she can see the world around her, BUT I crave the cuddling! Isabella was and is my cuddler - from the day she got out of the hospital, she would rather be held by us, would cuddle up on daddy's chest, wanted to be rocked and sung to sleep...... not Amelia. And that's Ok, I love to see the different personalities they have and think of who they will be become and I love them Exactly the way they are, but as a mommy I so enjoy rocking them and holding them close. Plus, although we've had her since day one - sometimes with adoption you start worrying "maybe she's not bonded, etc". Anyway, this morning for some reason Amelia woke up at 5 am -- since she was a 6 weeks old, she hadn't woke up in the middle of the night - EVER (maybe that should be my next treasure.) I heard her stirring in there and thought she would probably go right back to sleep, a couple minutes later she started crying - whimpering actually. I went in, she gave me a big smile and then it quickly turned into a pout and a cry. So, I picked her up, took her over to the rocking chair and she had one little hand around my neck, curled up against me and just cuddled. I was in mommy heaven! She just cuddled up against my chest, not even sleeping and loved on me. I know it may seem silly, but I was missing having a cuddly baby, so it was nice that she gave me 15 minutes today! Which in no way changed who she was because when she was ready for her morning nap, she once again had no desire to cuddle, but fell quickly asleep in her crib. I take what I can get!!!